miXed uP!!!

at pusat akses now....

lots of things had happened..managing people is sooo difficult now....not only the world is changing even the people.....what i cannot believe is dat...PEOPLE who was very close to me...

exactly a weeek ago...everything happened..it changed..the relationship....mommy always say cry for things which r important....bt dat day....cried like 3 times...first i was touched...2nd...wat i didn't believe were his mere apologizes, promises n words...it wuz nt i was nt thankful for dat..coz no one would have dat courage to see me like dat....i'm thanking u for dat...

but please think bout the mistakes u've done....hw it had effected ppl around u....relationships r sumthing dat is very sensitive....care it with love....i'll say....

i'm glad dat i'm leaving semesti soon...can't think of another year here....back to basic..my dear





actually i hav lots to talk about...bt its because evrything is already mixed up in this intricate head of mind.day's y post ni pun mcm tu!!!

.::remember the time::.♥

a little sumthing from my heart...was torned apart...n without realising it i wrote a long poem bout it n tears came rolling...

i saw ur face yesterday
it brought back millions of memories
tried my best to forget bout it
but i can't,not enough strength to do it

u noe
i never try to deny
the best moments in life was with u
i see the best of me through u...ur eyes
u let me show the world
the inner beauty dat i possesed
thank u ♥

u gave me hope
in which i believed in
and made it into dreams
dreams of seeing just
U and Me forever
thank u ♥

never dis to happen
but it is
u r juz hand-reach away
but i can't feel ur presence
ur breath blows my hair slightly
but i can't smell u
i can see u
but it's fading,dear
u touched me
and i felt numbness in my hand

i'm remembering the time
when u r always there to hear
my nonsenses
u make me laugh for no reasons
when u always make me fell right,
just to be beside u
n u make each single day,special
u r my intricate memory
thank u ♥

Now,
something is ripping us apart
we r not like those times anymore
if its because of her
then i'm not suprised
i'm missing u already
but,
guess i have to let it go
i have to WALK AWAY
believe me
it isn't easy, my dear

now, that you've left
it is making me thank u
for the 'sumthing' dat u left
i'm learning to understand
people better
not to be fooled again
not into falling for people
easier anymore
wanna make it go the other way round
LOVE STORY is a memory now
thank u ♥
just to make sure everything's ok..
i'll be praying...

if u r reading dis..no offence to anyone...it came out from me solely n heartly....

chit.chat.

today..was a day full of family stories n chit-chatting....

at around 12++ i left my home with my sibs n mommy n grannys to my aunt's place for christmas lunch..the food was fantastic...bt i was quite dissapoint coz i was waiting for the roasted stuffed turkey..yummy!!!bt it's okay..the food was good..then, i join my cousin to watch The Pink Panther 2....loads of funny moments!!!

then we went to another realative's house..i've nt seen them for ages..maybe like about 6 years???yup2...time allocated to be spent there was an hour..bt we end up being there for almost 4 hours...my cousin juz cam back frm Russia...after doing medicine...sooo chatted with him...it was soo much fun...bt as time flew..my sis n bro n me were bored...so we watched click!!

came back had dinner n watched alvin n the chipmunks...

sooo..tomorrow i'll have my cousin over for a sleepover...soo excited...so long no visitors to the house...maybe another trip to the cinemas????anyone free???



ya...i'm very excited today cz...i've finally found my long-lost cousin,SHOBAN....yup...we r same aged.i last saw him was when we were 7 years..i think!!found him on facebook.the sad part was dat..he didn't noe me...he can't remember me....it was quite heart wrenching...bt nvr mind...we chatted quite long...n alas we r like normal cousins..i like it!!!waiting forward to see u!!!

on F.E.V.E.R!!!

yup2...currently in fever+cough+flu....mom had sum of her staffs yesterday for dinner...so helped her prepared meals....bt was feeling uneasy when i started cleaning the prawns with lil sis...n soon after my body went hotter n hotter...so i slept n woke up at 3..nt 3am bt 3PM..yup2...


i still dunno whether i could make it or not to the ezy addmath camp at my skul....dat's is sooo nt cool!!!!wanted to see T.H.E.M soo badly..guess hav to move on with the flow..... God's willing...i'll make it guys!!!

xoxoxo

wanna go back!!!!!!!!!

nk blek..
nk blek.....
nk blek...

ari ni f4 blk umah...it's sooo sad..juz watching them leave the school..but then i managed to outing..hehehehe..ehh..no fly...using the right way lah!!!my self,jiha n farah...it's juz damn boring juz being in school....so..xpelah at least blh outing...am in va now...rmai bdk semesti.....cc feberet katekan....

4 ibnu haitamers managed to be veterinarians ze other day....ahahaha..we sacrificed 3 frogs n fish each..wat's dis all bout????the other day..under the surveillance of our biology teacher,miss rosma...we operated 3 frogs..it was soo much fun..n exciting...although the smell was soo not gud...there were many pics taken but...dis damn computer is nt reading my camera...aarrghhhh!!!!

i'm trying my best to get rid of him frm my my mind...better still forget him....but i noe it's nt dat easy...he had been part of my life already...dis week had been too harsh for me...i'm laughing on the outside..but only GOD knows how i'm suffering on the inside....although i feel he has nothing to be blame upon..but my heart says otherwise...i wanna feel 'love' as others do....nt being jealous...but...i guess i have to follow wat fate has in store for me....

see u guys on monday..take care...luv u guys...



p/s:tomorrow marks the 1st anniversary..MUIN left us all.....may his soul rest in peace....

goin back to semesti???nope perhaps!!

goin back to semesti???nope perhaps!!!

juz don't hav the feelings to go back to SEMESTI...i hate semsti for wat it is...***..T_T..

dunno y i'm saying dis..but i've got sum major probs in semesti..n i juz can't continue living there...

hav told mum n dad...they r quite dissapointed..but..folks...if u want me to hav a beautiful n succesful lyfe..then semesti is juz nt the place i should be...

i noe dat i'll definitely do better outside...i noe it such a stupid action to do for an indian like me..it's not easy to get place in SBPs' but i juz can't live there anymore...

perhaps i juz won't cum back to semesti after dis hols...soo anyone esp:

dak batch 23
--juz wanna tell u guys rock...will miss u like hell...OMG...can i go through dis???need help??

4 Ibnu Haitamers
--keeponrocking!!!!modengs stay strong n together forever...

3mo8'
--luv u lots...i'll remember u guys forever....i promise...

semesti taekwondo club members(esp *****)
--i can't keep thinkin y r u guys in the list...but it's definitely u guys secured a place in my heart..sumpah ingat zaman wat semesti close..n dat fun moment..we organized the first ever f3 twd dinner..dat was superb cool!!!i swear dat...cainy,akmal,yazid,bad,angel....will miss u lots+definitely+terribly+affectionately+wateverly

my db8 family
--guys..sori to dissapoint u guys..but i'm leaving for good...thankie frankie...for teaching me evything dat i must noe...sean,k.zack,nik..luv u alls...syairah,syahmi,ben,jackie...keep on practising..make sure semesti is the best in zone nex year bru blh gi kebangsaan kat KELANTAN...

so all in all....

GoOdByE!!!

chiao~~

aaahhhh...

it's been seriously too long i've opened my own blog...n updating it...so here i am...

my new room it's finally 80% furnished..i've chose the theme...n it's...(drums' rolls).....red+white....yeah n it rocks...i'll b decorating it soon....n post the pics later perhaps!!!

last thursday..we had our Hari Anugerah Kecemerlangan Kurikulum...i got my PMR award 2008....yeah...mommykins,daddykins n my grandpops came....the best part wuz dat..i got to meet frankie...yeah my senior dbater...really missed him(blush**)...talked to him for hours...we had gr8 laughters for the whole nite...wish he wuz still with us at SEMESTI.....

(frankie..kalo ko bce ni....dun get too overemotional!!)

came down to teluk intan to go for the Chitra Pournami celebration....with angel...she's kinda into everything.....ahaks...LOL...

skul???is getting weirder each day.....i hate SEMESTI for its ridiculous rules...i had to do 10 star jumps dis morning bcoz went late for prep class...wat the heck?????there wuz nt even one announcement on wat time the prep will start!!!!n suddenly i heard ppl screaming n running.....

but it was fun....seriously....ahaks...

PMR...OMG!!

"Keputusan PMR 30 Disember"

KUALA LUMPUR - Keputusan peperiksaan Penilaian Menengah Rendah (PMR) bagi tahun 2008 akan diumumkan pada 30 Disember ini dan semua calon peperiksaan itu boleh mengambil keputusan mereka di sekolah masing-masing mulai pukul 10 pagi.Menurut Ketua Pengarah Pelajaran, Datuk Alimuddin Mohd. Dom, analisis keputusan PMR juga akan diumumkan pada hari yang sama di Putrajaya pada pukul 9 pagi.Seramai 472,060 calon di seluruh negara telah mendaftar untuk menduduki peperiksaan PMR yang berlangsung dari 13 hingga 17 Oktober lalu."

Oh Lord!!!What i am goin to do???results r juz days away...i juz dunno wat to expect...i'm nt trying 2 b humble or anything...but i seriously dont..y'all peeps!!..of coz..we would expect the best...so lets c wat fate has in store for me....

tO aLl 23Rd BaTcH Of sEmEsTi...gud luck yo!!!

chiowz~