it's TIME!!!!

aku ANTI-COUPLE?????

all i can say is dat.....WATEVER????

ntahlah....mmg dh nasib aku kot.....stiap kali nk exam...msti ader probs sblum tu....mse up1...TOO MUCH problems.....hoping dat upt would b fine.....bt no....still ader PROBS!!!!maybe bdak klas aku tau?????or maybe SUM of them r de' prob?????

#1

aku ANTI-COUPLE?????

u guys can say watever u want...bt i am me.....dis is hw i live my life.....thruthfully to say...aku bkn anti-couple..it's juz aku MELUAT tgk SUM of "them"....dis is the truth...tp jujur bkn sumer.....i can trime sum couple.....i even help sum......bt sumtimes its juz sooo disgusting to see sum....gaya mcm dh kahwin.....maybe it's their probs kan....dose dgn Tuhan????bt watever is said...jgelah prasaan org kat sekeliling...kalo nk wat PAPE pun...dun do it in PUBLIC.....ppl r watching......x malu kew????walo pndai mcmne pun kalo maruah dri x reti nk jge SME jerr....soooo dis is my decision.....kalo x ske...u r MOST welcum to leave MY LIFE....i juz had enough with sum of u.....

#2

okie...spt sedia maklum aku ader BIG probs ngan MAMU@NOR AZMAN B IBRAHIM.sooo coz aq xde mse nk clear name kat skul...i'm goin to do it here....sooo sape yg bce.....u guys noe part of my story....

okie...so on SATURDAY(29/5/2010) at 11.30am...i wuz on my way back frm prep...tetibe ader f1 pnggl..kternyerr abg ABU nk JMPE...i wuz suprised....xpelah gi jerrlah...rupernyerr MAMU yg nk jmpe...okie...so watever....then suddenly for no reason he raised he's voice at me.....i wuz like hei...x start pape2 pun..tetibe nk loyar buruk apehal???i calmed myself.......aku x suke org jerit kat aku....he started accusing me of things i did nt even think to do...mmglah aku rpat ngan "frau"..watever jambu yg ko pnggl.....tp aku bkn rapat ngan dier psl ko....ko ngat aku x mende lg BAGUS nk wat kew????he said aku REPORTlah....hey....it was a coincidence aku jmpe dier kat tgh jln n she asked me about ***********......so what??????aku pun bknnyerr gebang kat dier....i told her the truth!!!!juz bcoz ur f***** fren nmpk n britau kat ko...doesn't mean ko blh caya jerr???pikirlah dlu....aku ader byk lg nk wat kat skul lah....drpd ckp psl ko...kalo aku nk NAMA/PUJIAN pun....ader mende len yg aku blh wat.....i've gt lots to prove to the teachers...so...cuz ko dh malukan aku.....do wat u supposed to do...dh bsar kan kalo dh wat salah nk wat aper????BAGOS!!!!mcm tulah....kalo still x phm...kne ckp bhase aku plak yerr..mne tau PHM kan????


#3

frenz???

ntahlah....mcmne blh msuk list aku pun x tau???

tp tetibe rse mcm watever happen to THEM??????one day i'm alrite..n they cuddle me(frenz)....n u see the other minute i fall sick....n they juz push u away(enemies...urrrmm..no talking)....sorilah kpd yg terasa...aku juz terkezut.....after dh elok demam kan...tetibe aku rse mcm kat dunia baru.....ader JAMBU bru...n byk lglah....







dat's it for now.....any comments???feel free to do it...with identity yerr...without them noo RESPONSE!!!!kpd yg ter'terasa sorilah......i had been keeping dis for a VERY VERY long time!!!!

deBate-a skill!!!

at language room now...debate is a HOT thing now in skul....as the HKSBP Zon Utara is next Thursday till Sunday.will be having a friendly with KUSESS dis monday....our two ex-debater is coming tomorrow....so happy...bcuz i seriously need their help...

skul is hoping dat we bring back the glory a.k.a trophy to the skul...bt with teammates who dun give commitments n respect to the seniors...then dis thing bout team won't work.....

tomorrow...will be a long day....coz debate 24/7....tcher laili said next week NO p&p n prep for US!!!!!

dat's it...gotta chiao..debate2..

miXed uP!!!

at pusat akses now....

lots of things had happened..managing people is sooo difficult now....not only the world is changing even the people.....what i cannot believe is dat...PEOPLE who was very close to me...

exactly a weeek ago...everything happened..it changed..the relationship....mommy always say cry for things which r important....bt dat day....cried like 3 times...first i was touched...2nd...wat i didn't believe were his mere apologizes, promises n words...it wuz nt i was nt thankful for dat..coz no one would have dat courage to see me like dat....i'm thanking u for dat...

but please think bout the mistakes u've done....hw it had effected ppl around u....relationships r sumthing dat is very sensitive....care it with love....i'll say....

i'm glad dat i'm leaving semesti soon...can't think of another year here....back to basic..my dear





actually i hav lots to talk about...bt its because evrything is already mixed up in this intricate head of mind.day's y post ni pun mcm tu!!!

baby..one time

yesterday went to kajang to buy prezie for sis' fren's birthday party today....so dh alang2 mcm tu...baik aq pun blikan....so took the opportunity to buy prezies for my little darlings...yup...

"dear, if u r reading dis...i'm sori for the late birthday gift...it was nt dat i forgot bout it...it's juz dat i have to wait for the holidays to get sumthing for u....need it to be special rite???last year kter sme skola kan??kan???have to make it sumthing dat we both will remember...sooo i really hope u'll like it...pnat cri tau..."

ari ni went to jusco plak....bought the newest galaxie(jonas brothers cover)....ama, ur favourite guy is in galaxie...justin bieber's one time in songwords section...the first thing dat came through my mind at dat time...was u....soo get it ahh...

esok..we'll be having chinese new year open house at my place...yup..a few relatives are joining for a pot luck kinda thing.....

dat's it for now!!

happy chinese new year plus valentines day

to all my chinese frenz n all malaysians...i wish u guys a prosperous Chinese New Year!!May the Year Of Tiger brings luck, wealth n success in all way....

on top of that.....




i also wanna wish all of u outside there a Happy Valentines Day!!!at last i'm celebrating it at my home...but it's minus daddy....kinda sad...bt nvr mind..now i really wanna watch valentines day the movie...it's gonna be great...any dates???

kaunseling..apecer???

yup..for the first tyme kne kaunseling....eitt aq x kne kaunseling sbb bermasalah....tp juz nk tolong kak su....kaunselor praktikal skool..so it was kaunseling kelompok....dh dua sesi....both bezz2...

#1 session

-bout peraturan skul yg sucks!!!yup...actually dat very evening...kitorg kne truk glerr kat asrama..there was certain tshirt u cannot where la...karut...so as everyone was burning inside out...we decided to go on with this topic...it was bout 45 minutes..kinda perbincangan thing...

#2 session

-dis was one cool thing...it was bout friendship cum love cum enemy sort of thing...at last sumbody to and sumthing to talk about...it was also fun...like something was pulled of my chest....thankie guys...i must tell no more..secreto



i cried many days bcuz of these prob...13/1 was the day all it started....i dun want all dis to happen in my last year....something must seriously wrong with myself coz it is with me dat he's wrong with....i see he's as usual with everyone else...although they feel like he's a changed person...kak chik said i'm CONFUSED with my feelings...they tell me i dun deserve a fren like him...yes...bt i would really like to noe y he's doin dis to me????anyone with the answer...pls tell me...

20/1/2010(wat ahh??)

byk sgt nk tulis ni...ari tu x smpat....isk..


so came back yesterday...dh start wat omwork...menggunung beb...yup2...went to the clinic to get my nose checked..yup sinus is biggest prob..then went for dinner... today mmg bgn lmbt..at 1pm..bad ahh???biaselah tu...ate lunch at 3++....my dad had to go to INDIA...for sum reason i dun noe...so after dad went to the airport at bout 7++...mommy and us went to McDonalds for our dinner....on the way back bought some nasi gorengs for supper and kakak's dinner.... n now i'm here after long hours doing my homework....


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*20/1/2010*

a day to be remembered....definitely...i had a double-blast birthday!!

went 12 am struck...i was at my dorm with the form 1 students...and then cainy asked to teman her to ampaian...i suspected something amiss...coz she never asks to do dat...i thought there was something at the ampaian to scare me off..then anne ask me to follow her to her dorm coz my prezie is there....n i did...didn't i expect dat i will get all splashy and wet on my up the stairs....thanks to ama, mira, sha, yus, jun, zatul, anne, cainy for dat....sumpah bezz...plus it was cold...during school...many wished me..thank u soo much..i breathe through ur prayers...thankie guys...and dat nite....during the nite prep....it was soo usual..until wani called me saying dat polan wants to see us...went to db...n it was pitch dark...then i saw a lighted cake....n there they were hiding behind tables n chairs.....it was a shocker....the cake was beautiful...credits to cainy, moja, abe, akmal, angel, wani, dhars, n rohan...the same colour with my kurung dat nite...PINK...we had sum drink n i shooted of to my addmath mentor class....came back to hostel....called parents...n when i went back to my dorm..another shock...another CAKE...credits to dormates n tcher UMI....for the cake.....very delicious..thnak u....n it was great birthday indeed...the last in semesti...

.:dat nite:.

.:with them who prepared:.

.:with rohan n sis:.

.:my other half:.

.:sweet ahh??:.

.:them:.

.:at dorm:.

ThaiPusam

we left home like about 4am..juz to make sure we find a good spot for parking n lesser crowd during the wee hours.n thank God we did...the jam was bad.lesser crowd???no difference...people were pushing...we saw some kavadis...mum n dad decided to stay down...so we(sis,bro, and me) climbed up the steep flight of 272 stairs...yup2...

then we went jalan2...bought some sweets...then see more kavadis...n at about 11+ we left batu caves...it was soo tiring....i slept in the car...everyone except dad...we ate our lunch at stephen's corner in ampang....

so for who didn't make it juz now to batu caves..here is a glimpse of the day:

.::the tallest murugan statue in the world::.


.::one of the beautiful kavadis::.


.::at about 6am::.


.::aeriel view::.


.::inside the cave::.

.::remember the time::.♥

a little sumthing from my heart...was torned apart...n without realising it i wrote a long poem bout it n tears came rolling...

i saw ur face yesterday
it brought back millions of memories
tried my best to forget bout it
but i can't,not enough strength to do it

u noe
i never try to deny
the best moments in life was with u
i see the best of me through u...ur eyes
u let me show the world
the inner beauty dat i possesed
thank u ♥

u gave me hope
in which i believed in
and made it into dreams
dreams of seeing just
U and Me forever
thank u ♥

never dis to happen
but it is
u r juz hand-reach away
but i can't feel ur presence
ur breath blows my hair slightly
but i can't smell u
i can see u
but it's fading,dear
u touched me
and i felt numbness in my hand

i'm remembering the time
when u r always there to hear
my nonsenses
u make me laugh for no reasons
when u always make me fell right,
just to be beside u
n u make each single day,special
u r my intricate memory
thank u ♥

Now,
something is ripping us apart
we r not like those times anymore
if its because of her
then i'm not suprised
i'm missing u already
but,
guess i have to let it go
i have to WALK AWAY
believe me
it isn't easy, my dear

now, that you've left
it is making me thank u
for the 'sumthing' dat u left
i'm learning to understand
people better
not to be fooled again
not into falling for people
easier anymore
wanna make it go the other way round
LOVE STORY is a memory now
thank u ♥
just to make sure everything's ok..
i'll be praying...

if u r reading dis..no offence to anyone...it came out from me solely n heartly....

last day..

• went out to buy my stuffs
• x abis packing lagi:P
• ipod is charging
• pics saved to lappie and pendrive
  
• new songs is dowloading
• omwork nt finished
• bought them presents for their upcoming birthdays
  
• eager to c the ones is missed soo much
• cdey nk tinggalkan umah...
• rse nk nangis!!!!:(
• waiting for 11/1...sis is coming..
• gtg....packing2...

buhbye for now...

au revoir 2009

haven't been blogging lately...dats bcuz didn't had anything to blog about despite coming back late from year end shopping.it's been a tradition...


so yesterday..we went to Berjaya Times Square to actually pick up my twilight tees bt we ended up spending like 8 hours there...wow isn't it???juz luv the tee...it's simple bt i like it...gt one for my sis..met up with sis Nurul...she wuz one of the creator of twilighters malaysia..she wuz very sweet n beautiful...we went jalan2...n did sum serious shopping..we bought soo much stuff....it was quite tiring...no..DAMN tiring...shoes,hat,sunglasses,tops...byk lglah...it was fun too...we wanted to go cosmo world..bt it was quite late alredi..so we kept it for another day...

my bro wanted to buy a limited edition(i think??)jersey...so after times square..ate dinner like around 10..n dad drove to petaling street...scary place..bt definitely a place to go...shops were closing..soo nt much could be done....

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

today...

shopping utk skul plak!!

we went to kajang..mmg stiap thn gi cni to buy our skul stuffs...bought me a pair of bju kurung, uniform, n a shoe(luv the shoe) thank u daddy!!...bt mainly it was for my lil sis,dharshinee...as she'll join me nex year...had to buy all the stuffs...we went to buy books for my bro n couzie...they r sitting for PMR dis year...after dat we decided to watch movie..movie yg available were avatar n vetaikkaran(a tamil action flick)...so obviously we chose the tamil movie..we ate satay(kajang's most famous food)...n went for the movie...bezz gak..byk gado2..tp syoklah...huhuhu...after the movie we had like mere 10 minutes for new year...so dlm kereta we started singing songs n looking out for fireworks...spotted one two..n b4 reaching home...we went to eat at malaysian's favourite hangout spot...the mamak stall...lalalala~~



in conclusion:thn ni new year wuz bezz..coz although its was nt like sumwhere happening like kl...bt i was happy coz..we were in the car as a whole family..n it wuz nice..

i wanted to end this post for 2009 with pics...bt my lappie is nt reading the memory card...so might do it sum other time...

au revoir 2009..

welcome 2010...

twilight maniac #4

"Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you.
I'd been broken beyond repair."
-- Bella

chit.chat.

today..was a day full of family stories n chit-chatting....

at around 12++ i left my home with my sibs n mommy n grannys to my aunt's place for christmas lunch..the food was fantastic...bt i was quite dissapoint coz i was waiting for the roasted stuffed turkey..yummy!!!bt it's okay..the food was good..then, i join my cousin to watch The Pink Panther 2....loads of funny moments!!!

then we went to another realative's house..i've nt seen them for ages..maybe like about 6 years???yup2...time allocated to be spent there was an hour..bt we end up being there for almost 4 hours...my cousin juz cam back frm Russia...after doing medicine...sooo chatted with him...it was soo much fun...bt as time flew..my sis n bro n me were bored...so we watched click!!

came back had dinner n watched alvin n the chipmunks...

sooo..tomorrow i'll have my cousin over for a sleepover...soo excited...so long no visitors to the house...maybe another trip to the cinemas????anyone free???



ya...i'm very excited today cz...i've finally found my long-lost cousin,SHOBAN....yup...we r same aged.i last saw him was when we were 7 years..i think!!found him on facebook.the sad part was dat..he didn't noe me...he can't remember me....it was quite heart wrenching...bt nvr mind...we chatted quite long...n alas we r like normal cousins..i like it!!!waiting forward to see u!!!

NEW MOON again???

yup..i went to watch NEW MOON again...dat movie rocks...i was like watching it for the first tyme...u noe???..i went watching it with my sis...i was as usual during the movie....whenever there was dis part where edward or jacob comes out..and even edward's charming words blurting out...i shriek!!!yup...sis told me dat i acted like i it was my first tyme watching the movie....believe me..the first time was worse!!!lolx....

came back like around 6...so went dog-walking with ginger and coco to the playground...

today result pmr kluar....so i heard my skul did well....2nd in Perak ahh???dat's a great piece of work...i'm proud of u guys...cz u guys really kicked butts dis year..i noe u guys really struggled for pmr...bt as a senior...do nt be too proud of wat u guys had achieved.always be grateful to teachers, friends, and family...n GOD....n anyone who've had helped to achieve dis results....dat is the one thing dat was lacking in my batch..n i'm quite dissapointed.nvr repeat the mistakes of others bt pls learn frm it....dat is wat i'm asking u guys to do....to 23rd batch...let's build up our spirit n work on hard bcuz SPM is there to prove!!!



i'm still waiting for my club's tee...


dat's all for today..

pics of the day:)

..:sis:..


..:sis n me:..


..:aww:):..

i'm a twilighter!!!

dis is also official....




i'm a proud to be call a member of the twilighters malaysia club.yup..i recently enrolled myself in dat club coz i thought it was cool...yup..it is...i'm soon goin to buy the club t-shirt.soo, u can also join the club at

twilighters Malaysia official website

twilighters Malaysia official blog

twilghters Malaysia facebook page

it's OFFICIAL!!!

okie...finally we checked the MOE web...n it's official dat my sis will join me in SEMESTI...dat's one kind of horror...hw in the hell dis 2 sisters will be living in SEMESTI in peace..nvr i guess...soo let's c wat kinda problem we bring to the skul...lolx...

so..anyone of u who r reading dis n wish to check the status of any family members...u can do it at the MOE's website.click here

proof:)

Angka Giliran		:	BH0691012
Nama Calon		:	DHARSHINEE A/P SURESH KUMAR
Sekolah Asal		:	BBA8228 - SK TAMAN UNIVERSITI
Nama Sekolah		:	SM SAINS TELUK INTAN
Alamat Sekolah		:	TELUK INTAN
Poskod		:	36010
Bandar		:	PERAK
No. Tel. Sekolah		:	05-6411711
Tarikh Daftar : 11 Januari 2010 (ISNIN)
p/s:i'm sori

i luv u

"i'm happy as long as you are happy,
but please don't make me deny the fact that i
still and always be loving U"

#2 hangout!!

finally i got to watch twilight:new moon saga...with sumone who i love n i noe this person would definitely b happy to see the movie with me..rite carmen????:)


it was definitely goin a normal day...okok wait...waking up at 9am from a phone call by carmen..isn't normal????wtf.....carmen called me at about 9am asking me whether i want to follow her to watch new moon together...y would i say no?????i said yes..n asked my mom to send us to mines,which was the nearest mall from my home..

we rushed to TGV cinemas n bought the 2.10pm show...we ate our lunch at The Chicken Rice Shop...believe me..we had a though tyme finishing dat meal...we jln2 a bit more...n the show began....

"i'm telling u new moon is a must movie to watch...i had nvr had the most wonderful tyme at the cinemas before...n thanks to twilight, robPat, taylor, kristen, stephenie meyer n the whole production crew...n especially to my bestest fren....carmen...i wouldn't hav had dat priviledge...the movie was great....E.C.L.I.P.S.E. is coming to the cinemas in June 2010...can't wait for dat one though...ha3..lolx"

after dat..we were sooo exhausted from the shopping thing..n i suggested sumthing fun to do....KarAoKe!!!!yup...carmen didn't want to do it....but finally we nailed it...we juz wanted to do one song..but at the end of the day we did 5!!!if my dad didn't call probably we had done more....i had so much fun..then it was time to go home....carmen came to my house...n i showed her my newly renovated home to her..she loved it!!




what i realised from dis hangout wuz dat...hw dis hangout mean sooo much to us....i done 3 things i loved most with sumone i loved most..dat is movies,singing n shopping...it needn't sooo much to make sumone's day...you may think what you did is just a small deed.but to sumone it means a lot


sooo..as usual..pics of de day:

..:we r at the karaoke..:


..:ur de reason for....de teardrops on my guitar(look at the monitor beside me):..



..:me n carmen:..


..:our lunch:..


..:who's dat preety gal there???....lolx:..

p/s:angel..i'm missing u sooo much..u were all dat i thought when i bought the tickets..

..:thank you:..

the truth????i didn't do it myself...sumone gave it to me as a comment...so if that person is reading...i would like to thank you..

When you are feeling alone like no one cares, read this cuz its absolutely true: Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep. At least fifteen people in this world love you. The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you. There are at least two people in this world that would die for you. You mean the world to someone. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look. Always remember the compliments you've received. Forget the rude remarks.

at home~~~

ok..now i'm back at home....trying to figure out wat to do nex...sbnarnyer..byk nk wat tp....bcuz it's lot....otak dh jam....lolx..

juz finished watching AYAN....it's a tamil movie...action +romantic flick...teramat sgt besh....sbb hero tu nsem...6-pack abbs babes!!!!finally got to watch it....akmal..kalo ko tgh bce mende ni....tgk filem ni...surya lakon dlm crite ni!!!k???

smlm abis kem addmaths...it wuz bezz...coz we got to learn new stuffs...bab f5...nerves are wrecking me....spm is getting closer...tp yg x sronok is that hw it ended......some monkeys in my batch buat hal again!!!!!we dun want them to b here nex year....tlglah faham.....jgn kaco batch 23 lg.....nex year nk spm..x dpt keredhaan cikgu ssh....blajar drpd kesalahan kter mse f3.....batch 23 is great...bt of cuz greater without them!!!!so understand u guys!!!!

came back lmbt glerr smlm..at 11 pm....mmg xde mood langsung nk o9...or update bloggie..byk glerr omwork....folio+handout+concept map+notes....aaarrrgghhh...it's ok i've gt another year in SEMESTI!!!

so hw did 2009 in semesti ended???very....emotion filled..of cuzlah cdey kan..but then....gmbira gak cuz dpt blk umah...

many people noticed the difference but why nt u????i can see that our friendship is nt getting any better since dat fight we had..kan???idk....but we r loosing apart....bkn mcm dlu......aku rindu!!!!!!zaman dlu2..kter cikgu rohaya..mse kechik2 dlu....thinking of this makes me cry..bkn nangis sbb laki but bcuz of the memories!!!!!!

..:i noe i'm right:..

..:gud luck with whoever ur wif rite now:..

..:remember 2 nvr hurt dis ppl's feeling...k??:..

..:will b missing u:..

..:will always b loving u:..

..:sori for everything:..

..:thankie for the space for me in ur heart:..

..:at least i had the opportunity to noe sumone wonderful like u:..

..:will nvr hav the chance to find a peson like u:..

..:we'll b frenz rite???:..

..:thank u and buhbye...for now:..